`A MOTHER's LOVE.

To some LOVE is just a word
To me it's a feeling
A feeling I get every time I look into your eyes
A feeling I get when I realize your my mom
A mom who loves, shares, A mom who inspires
Unconditionally
What's that?
That's love
A mothers love, but only you would know
And me
You returned that love time and time again
Possibly to much, nevertheless you did
Thank-you
Thank-you for being there when I needed you most
For being my rock when I should have been yours
Thank-you for believing in me, even when I doubted myself
For being the one person I could trust
No matter what, no matter where
But most of all thank-you for being you-my mom
A mom I am so proud to claim
I love you
Now and forever.

`MY MOTHER,MY MENTOR,MY FRIEND.

In the hollow of your arms, snuggled up all safe and warn,
You used to tell me tales of unicorns and kings.
But how could I comprehend all the things you told me then
Of your madness and your struggling?
And my mind would swim in fantasies, like a piece of driftwood in the sea.
I had no touchstone for reality. you were my reality.
Like a dark and unlit room or the far side of the moon,
Your insanity spoke emptiness and fear.
And no matter how I tried, how I questioned and I pried,
I just could not penetrate that thin veneer.
And I know you tried to comfort me, to soothe and reassure me.
But then your strength would always fail and in it's place a silken veil.
Like a dried and wrinkled prune, a deflated toy balloon,
I cam home and found you strewn across the floor.
And as they lay you on your bed I heard you say,
"if I a dead, how come it just keeps on hurting more and more? "
And you left me in the early spring. all they said was, "mommy's resting."
And how was I to know, so young, it wasn't something I had done?
So please try and understand, I will love you as I can.
I do not blame you; you're not guilty.
But still there's no way to describe the relief I finally found
Upon learning it was you, and not me, that was crazy.

I know for one my mother has done this more then once for me. So to all you mothers, guardians, grandmothers, aunts thank you for all that you have done to make our lives full filled and happy. You mean the world to us!Happy Mother's Day! :D

`MY PAST LiFE REGRESSiON.

If i was asked to choose my life at present and my life in past,I would better choose my present life.I could show myself as "ME" and not just to be more.I mean every little word i write in my blog.From a day,I started to change and I learned that being yourself is important.My past life isn't too lonely,boring and stupid.I rather live a life like what am i living now.I have a life that brings me a smile in my face.A life would be too easy for me if you can live it to the fullest.Problems will be faced,Challenges and mostly,sometimes you have to forgive one person in your life that you think you have make her/him very discourage or maybe disappointed.And that's what i mean.Years just passed and I should forgive and forget.Every single day makes me wonder if i would be forgiven.I hope i'm right so.I'm just Regressing the past life to fix all the happenings that we didn't want to happen.But it's just that!CHANGE is the only permanent thing in the world.Forget the past and start a new beginning with joys and happiness.Everything that i've been before,is everything i tried to throw away and erase in my mind.It's hard to admit that I was worse before.You don't know me BEFORE.FORGET it.I am the new me. BETTER me and improved me. :D

`THE DAY FINALLY CAME.

It's April 26!The day comes.1 month more to come! :D well, PATiENCE is a ViRTUE. am i right everyone yeah? haha. I feel happy.We can now start with more happiness and joys in life.It's NOT just more than that.It's how we show!:p FAiTH and TRUST is all i want in us. That could be possibly happen.It's not just about learning to forgive and forget.It's learning to love someone with your full heart.What make me realize,I can love someone even though i don't want to happen.I realize,you can't stop one's person feelings.Fight for it.No matter what happen,just keep holding on.It just show the strong ehhll-ohhh-veee-ee. HAHA! :))

`HOW I WISH.

There are many things in life that i always wanted to know,to try and to explore more.How i wish i could rewind my childhood days,how i wish i could get all the stuffs that i want so much and how i wish i can have the most perfect friend who will guide me through.maybe,this things would help me to get all i want.I know i have to do something good to get them.but HOW? maybe i can get over through new stuffs that i want to check out.maybe i'll find i way that i can get out of it. I often feel behind "JELOUSLY" with the people i always see with beautiful things that i can't have.A thing is WORTH for me.Everything that inside of it means everything to me.I always tell my mom about contact lens that i want to have,branded shirts that i care for and most of all, latest gadgets that i wanted so much.She CARE,i mean she ALWAYS care.